we're not the same

paramores new album is dope. brand new eyes. go get it!

neway.. i feel like cuttin somethin up right now. and by something i mean clothes. i havent made anything in a while...... hmmmmmmm

today was a good day..

i:

• started recording again
• cleaned out my computer
• met with costume designer
• got compliments on my designs by people who matter
• had a great lunch with a new friend
• and a candy/couch party with an old friend
• drank no fear energy for the first time
• took some good pics
• had a photo shoot in my house
• relaxed.

yes. today was a good day.

59 words.

ive decided that from now on. every day im going to think of a random topic, word or subject, and write 50 or so words about it. the first thing that comes to my head.

starting now.
topic: KISSING.

Kissing. Sometimes your lips want company, they lightly itch for a match, something else soft that can brush them, caress them , and forcefully push against them. Which in turn creates the feeling of floating, like your stomach is going to rise up into your throat and give off sparks to the one that you currently lock lips with. ♥

you cant change people.

people are gonna be how theyre gonna be.

regardless how much you want someone to change, they won't , until they FEEL like it.

your roommate will still be messy, no matter how many times you tell her to clean up.

your best friend will still be a bullshit artist no matter how many times you call him on his shit.

your dad will never be impressed with you no matter how many cool things you do.

THATS LIFE.

anywho...
ive realized that if i want my apartment to be a nice atmosphere, then ill have to clean it and organize it myself.

you cant wait on people to do things you want done for yourself.

ive also realized that if i want to have a great day, and be happy and smiley, then i have to make myself happy, and not rely on anyone else to make my heart flutter and my dimples poke out.

ill be fine just with nia.
♥

im not dead.

no im not dead. just almost.
i have been through hell's evil cousin and back lately.

just for everyone who's wondering.. i have one word for you....

YAZ.

its a killer . dont take it. youll die. 50 other women have. i hope a rep from yaz sees this dang blog and knows that you have officially ruined a month of my life, and made my skin temporarily look like oatmeal. i hope your company is sued for all its worth. ILL HELP.

anyway... i feel sorry for anyone who has every been scarred by this shitty ass overambitious bc pill. real bad real bad joe jackson... im sayin...

so ya. back on the predisnone. great. try some. just dont ask me for any.. cuz im stingy and dont have extra.

on a lighter note. i was very productive yesterday. made dinner and a cake. sadly had no one to share the cake with. so its just sitting in my fridge.

im a lonely loser.. im aware.

but i decorated my room.. an finally felt better.. and got some editing done :)

i will be better in due time.

unfortunately, my tatt game has been postponed because i dont think itll be a good idea to have colorful needles making beautiful designs on my body while im still yaz-poisoned. thats right poisoned.

im honestly praying that i dont suddenly drop like those other women. ( bless their souls and their families. smh)

but ya. so next week on the tatt. i swear!!!!!!! let love rule will be engrained on my mid section within the next week with a beautiful illustration.

in other news.... i decided yesterday that i will be hosting a halloween/beat georgia celebration/dessert/drink/costume party at my apartment on halloween. ..

so.. i definitley have to have the BEST costume there.. since its my dang house... so ive been pondering....

all i know is i want these things to be included in my costume

• cuteness/sexiness
• a leotard(single ladies-esque)
• maybe some true blood contacts? (if i can get em for less than $100)

lol.. im not asking for much...

some of the ideas ive gotten are catwoman... or a vampire...etc.. but i wan to be something extravagant.. and so awesome that everyone else is depressed that they cant be as cool as me. lol.

so ya. im going leotard shopping today at aa. and i dont think its too early... because halloween is in like a month.. and to make something amazing.. one must PLAN... agreed?

so ya... cant wait for alladatshit.

until next time.

x0x0.

NIA IMANI.♥

where have i been.

ive been lost.

• under my covers
• on the couch under my purple silk blanket
• in the Shands E.R staring at the crackheads and hoboes

live has been shitty this last week as one can see.

but im great now.. on prednisone. steroids. no need to elaborate on why. just know its good shit if your sick.

and im feeling great :). kinda wonderin why the side effects like mania or euphoria havent come... that would have been interesting....

any who... been deciding what to do with my blog lately.. culdnt decide if i should delete it or not because i got an official type internship at the gville sun... and i didnt want any one to type my name in to google one day and find my angry gangsta creative ramblings and judge me... you know?

but as for now... im keepin it... ill keep the motherfucks to a minimum.

anyway.. i got an internship with gville sun.. its dope.. i get to interview fans on gameday and smile big for the world to see... LIVE... how do u like me now?

i havent got a job tho... def need one of those...

no joke... im broke...

but yea... went to gainesville's fashion week the other nite.. pretty decent for town that leads people to think that culture does not exist...

i enjoyed it.. ill post pics soon

also, just thought of this brilliant idea today!

so dont copy me...

but im gonna wallpaper my room.. with textured brick wallpaper...

im so frickin excited... its gonna be like a city studio apartment..

in gainesville!!!(idk.. mayb its only exciting for me?)

btw...

listen to blueprint 3. i love love love it.

if jayz was handsome and didnt look like a closet violent man id probably have a crush on him... :)

i love men with tatts and a sick flow. or one or the other. im not picky.♥