im a fool.

restless. kinda tired, but i have to stay awake to go pick up babycakes from work. sigh. so ill share:

today the scariest, craziest, most unreal shit happened to me.  I was walking down the street around sundown.  this middle aged bald white man was strolling next to me.  He was walking briskly. He was 2 ft in front of me.  And then he fell. FLAT ON HIS FACE. i mean he passed out flat on his frickin face.I heard a crack, looked down, and he was on the ground face down not moving.  it was his head that had cracked, like a walnut or something. i was sure he was dead.  i screamed at the top of my of lungs and was frozen just staring at the man on the ground.  some ppl came up ad i called 911 and such, and after about 3 minutes, the man stands up and turns and looks at me and says "wow, i just felt really dizzy". i told him i was calling an ambulance, he refused, ad began to walk to his car.  while im on the phone with the dispatcher the man is walking to his car, and he gets in the car and drives away. just like that. that was too much to handle. all i keep hearing is the CRACK. I might need therapy after that one. sigh.

quotes

i love this

"the days get shorter when you lie" - f.o

this moment

at this moment i am grateful for you and that feeling and the love.
at this moment i am disappointed because yall showed me there is no love, yall showed me what was important, and unfortunately that wasnt me
at this moment i can say that my art has suffered, and for what?, for others who care not about my creative goals.
at this moment, i am thankful for the experience but ready to move on
at this moment i can  say that i am no longer a getaway but better yet a residence.
at this moment in time, i am ready to leave, ready to move to the next chapter, this page is getting old, i can't wait for what is next.
this too shall pass.

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