panflutes.

panflutes?

just think about it.

for the first time in my life i made terrible cake. i added too much water and they taste gummy and strange :(

that upsets me.

yesterday was a great relaxing day.. having lunch downtown and such.

last nite was  a blur.. in wwhich i was supposed to go out but ended up falling asleep.. and my phone kept obnoxiously ringing...

anyway... waking up this morning, unfortunately i was not greeted with the sun, so i figured I'd make my own.

i need to clean out this closet because its causing me to die. And ive been putting it off since last year.. ugh.

todayi plan to actually finish some things so that i have time to lolligag instead of wasting time and not getting anything productive accomplished at all.

and im praying that today is a non sick day as well.

btw. if anyone actually reads this blog, they should go check out my friend niko. on myspace. his music is amazing filled with nature sounds and harmonic singing, low voices, and harmonious guitar chords.

i love.

unoriginals.

i yawn at the unoriginals.

those who do what others do.. im so sorry but i cannot support you.

an example of an unorigianl person would be perhaps a  male who cakes it up with a girl, then smashes, and upon discussing a relationship, says that he has been really hurt in the past and therefore isn't looking for anything.

that my dear, is truly unoriginal. i mean if youre gonna be a dawg, at least be innovative.

i swear if i magically woke up as a man tmrw, after i got over the shock, i'd be the best player out there. people would have to tell me to turn my pimp level down just so they could have a chance.

another example of an unoriginal would be a girl who intentionally is rude to her ex childhood friend. more specifically,  going to the club and dancing right next to her when you know yall dont get along, or texting the girl about some silly shit... that is so childish and predictable.

my thing is this, if u wanna call yourself grown, be grown... dont act like some highschool slut who prides herself off of her light eyes ad curly hair and has nothing else going for her. UNORIGINAL indeed.

i feel like people sit around and call themselves the "realist" the "baddest", etc, but if you were that real and that bad, you wouldnt be using titles that 20 million other people scream to describe themselves.

unoriginals are:

• those who give excuses  lie about not answering the phone saying foolishness such as: *my phone died. *i had no service *i never got your message/call
• girls who give every other girl ugly looks in the club.. heres a tip: smile for a change
• boys who go to the same university with you yet only pay u any mind at the club
• those who cheat on their significant others... cmon everybody does that... come up with sumthin new
• those who blame their lack of a relationship on being hurt
• girls who say "niggas aint shit"
• boys who say "money over bitches"
• girls who call themselves barbie.... and u prolly look like precious
• pople who walk around quoting lil wayne... the man is on syrup
• boys who dont claim their girlfriends
• boys wo talk bad about their chicks to their friends
• boys who swear theyre "about to break up" wit their chicks
• golddiggers. make your own money, or swindle cash a different way...

and thats all i have for now.

please be original, regardless if youre doing good, or  taking part in the gradual ruin of society

my life is doomed

im upset because doctors like to misdiagnose me and give me a million and one blood tests and not give me the medicine i need and tell me to wait and postpone my recovery.

im upset because no one knows whats wrong with me and i feel terrible and have had every test done known to man.

im upset because its a waste of fucking gas, time and money to drive to orlando every fuckin week for a doctor' appt.

im upset because my gpa is shit because of minu grades and missed classes and if one were to simply look at my transcript from the last two semesters, they would think i was a ra-tard.

im upset because i cant flush the hatred away i have for a certain creature and im afraid that if i see her , authorities might have to become involved, which could be messy , because my grandfather is a well known cop in gville, and me going to jail for opening up  a can of whoopass wouldnt be a good look.

im upset that i dont write in my blog as frequently as i used to, it really is therapeudic.

im upset that bad girls club was erased from the dvr at my parents house.

im upset that guys keep asking me to shoot pics and video for them , when really their only intention is to smash and they couldn't think of  a more clever way of approaching me, and thus decided to pretend they were actually interested in business and being successful in life. smh

#in2010

Everyone keeps speaking of all the changes theyre going to make in 2010....

thats great and all.. but i decided to start my changes before the new year....

im so excited for this year to progress...

so excited to start doin more art.. filming.. and shooting.. and hopefully getting my name out there....

Last nite i had a really good conversation with a friend of mine who has now become my mentor...

he really opened my eyes as we talked about school.. and being successful in life.... and lthough id rather
jumostart to a career now..

he helped me understand that im still like mad young and once i learn more. ill be on top...

hes an aspiring filmmaker as well....

anywho... prolly gonna post my short video i made starring my lil bro... and then some of his pics from a shoot i had...

when i get back to gville.. i have a couple shoots to take care of.. an im sposed to shoot a video...

however .. im battling with the the current situation about me not getting paid... like im all for bettering myself and getting to meet good influential people..

however..... sometimes unfortunately.. it really does come down to.. "whats in it for me?"

and because i do have experience on a professional video shoot as the photographer.. id really like it if people took me more seriously..

and slid over the cash.

until next time.
♥ niaimani